God and my dwindling Faith...?

I have almost lost complete faith in god. But I used to have faith that there was a being that cared for all humans who was perfect in every way and most of all unselfish. But as I learned little by little I've come to see how selfish he seems it's like I'm supposed to devote my life and each thing I do to him because he created mankind. And put away everything that I think im the name of him or forever burn in hell. To me asking for forgiveness has never seemed like a way to wipe your slate in his eyes because in asking for forgiveness you are doing nothing but assuring a spot in heaven which seems wrong. It also always seems that only his "true believers and followers" will ever even be considered worthy enough to live in his kingdom. There's just so many reasons to me why I should give up hope in god and almost no reasons why I should believe in him besides blind faith. Being blind to me seems like your missing the picture but blind faith is all he gives you to believe in him.